About Julia Bondi

Power and control – Pluto square Saturn in your natal chart – does clearly define that dynamic as a foundational issue in your life. All human beings, an even higher priority for fire signs, do need to feel respected, proud and self-sufficient, the domain of the Sun and Jupiter. Over the course of your young life you have been moving ever closer to facing your inherent clash between Pluto and Saturn; this clash is now the central focus of your life from 2012 through 2017 as your progressed Sun squared your natal Saturn last year  now moving ever closer to an opposition to your natal Pluto in 2016/2017.

Born with Saturn in the 4th house you surely did not feel the warmth, comfort, support and generous belief in you and your future that would have buoyed you now and throughout your life. Notice that your parents described by your natal Sun (father) which quincunxes Pluto and squares both Uranus and Neptune; and your natal Moon (mother) squares Saturn and quincunxes Venus – were both unable to provide the loving support that would have naturally developed your inner pride and self-respect nor did they model for you the mature self awareness you are seeking to develop. What to do? At your 21st birthday it is time for you to commit to the life work of your Aries Sun which is to develop your own identity, self awareness, courage, and life path. Therefore, your progressed Sun aspects (described above) are the time for you to take charge of feeling respect for and pride in your inherent self as you become self-sufficient.With Libra rising and your Sun conjunct your Descendant opposite your Ascendant, it is too easy for you to expect others to give you the respect Aries must develop for themselves.

Despite the difficult aspects to your natal Sun/Moon, your natal Moon does trine your Mars and sextile your Jupiter while your while your natal Sun sextiles Saturn showing you that you can self motivate, work diligently and successfully to achieve what you seek. It would be helpful to read some good descriptions of your South Node in Cancer and North Node in Capricorn which emphasize the lack of family support in your early life and the soul demand to mature into responsibility for yourself and your life achievements. I think your well-aspected Mars in your 5th  house of romance, creativity and children which rules your 7th house of partnership will lead you to a successful marriage with a partner and children providing love and belonging at or near your 1st Saturn return at age 28. Meanwhile, your task is find a job that utilizes your skills, your chart ruler Venus is in your 6th house of work, as you build a career and achievements in which you can earn respect and feel pride while becoming self-sufficient. By your 30’s you will be a ram far up the mountain of your life. Happy Birthday!

No wonder men see you as an ideal mother figure; a result of your Moon/Mars/Saturn in Cancer. Just because you are a feminine, caring, supportive woman does not mean you are seeking a man to mother though it does mean that men who are seeking mothering will target you. Fortunately, you have left hurtful marriages, setting your sights on a partnership between equals. I am sure your Moon in Cancer, Pisces Sun/Venus/Ascendant and Neptune/Jupiter in your 7th house of partnership means you will be somewhat lonely without a partner.

Since your Moon and Mars are in Cancer in your 4th house of home, this new house is blessing and foundation for your life. Hopefully, you have a creative/artistic and/or spiritual life which gives full expression to your natal Sun/Venus conjunction in your 12th house and your natal Saturn/Pluto in the 5th house of creativity and art. Certainly, your natal chart does show marriage, due to your Venus conjunction to your Ascendant and your chart rulers in your 7th house of partnership. Natal Jupiter in your 7th house and mutable signs on your Ascendant/Descendant angles do suggest more than one marriage. Is there one more to come?

With transiting Uranus and Pluto challenging your natal Mercury/Neptune opposition, ruling your 1st and 7th houses, these last few years, that desirable marriage would not have been likely. Currently, there are encouraging signs of a possible relationship – transiting Jupiter is moving into your 5th house of romance this fall for a year, your solar arc progressed Mercury which rules your 7th house is conjuncting your natal Uranus (someone new and different from other men in your life), your progressed Venus will conjunct your natal North Node of the Moon in 3 years while it conjuncts your progressed Node this year. These aspects suggest a new relationship this year or next year which will develop gently over a couple of years. Remember that natal Jupiter in the 7th house will always offer you a relationship throughout your life; your mission has been to develop the wisdom, boundaries and inner strength to say no to the wrong relationships while saying yes to the right one. Good luck.

The gifts and blessings of your Sun in Pisces are apparent in your life through your home, partner, car and health insurance yet you also describe the angst of a Pisces longing for a meaningful purpose, a means to give back in the world. What is your mission in this life? This is the question that tickles and troubles you. Naturally you would focus on your spiritual path since transiting Neptune, the ruler of your Sun/authentic self, moved into Pisces last year for its 14 year stay though it will not reach the degree of you Sun/Mercury for many years.

Last fall as transiting Saturn, life’s timer, moved into Scorpio beginning its opposition to your natal Saturn, you feel the pressure of time moving forward demanding that you question where you have been for the last 15 years, where you are now and where you going for the next 15 years. It is time for Saturnian reflection, assessment and decisions, serious choices. Saturn is the co-ruler of your career house clearly stating that your spiritual path is also your career. I am sure you appreciate how blessed you are yet you are quite right to feel that nothing out there answers these soul questions or comforts you as you seek to find your path forward. Venus which rules your chart is receiving a conjunction from transiting Uranus in Aries as transiting Uranus opposes its natal position which is the reason you feel the need for a rebirth, a new birth is the work of Uranus.  In addition to Uranus transiting your Venus, transiting Pluto is also squaring your Venus this year intensifying the depth, meaning, painful struggle toward  and necessity for you to rebirth your awareness, career, and life path.

Your Saturn transit will be complete in late August while transiting Jupiter will trine your natal Saturn in July leading to career opportunities later this summer. Both your Uranus and Pluto aspects will continue into 2014, know that this rebirth will unfold in stages. Your mission now is to get started. But what is that dream job or, at least, how can you begin to move toward that work. Notice that your Midheaven, the career angle, is Aquarius, its rulers in the 5^th and 12^th houses, therefore, your new career must be creative, able to affect the people you work with and serve, must be in alignment with your deepest beliefs, and impactful in the world which brings together your 5^th, 11^th, 12^th house positions. I would suggest utilizing this time to volunteer someplace doing work you believe in while you seek a non-profit or small organization, 11^th house planets, to begin your new career. Currently your progressed Moon is in your career house supporting you working with people and organizations who are seeking to impact the world positively. Working soon will allow Neptune to inspire your inner guidance as it magically connects you to the people, places and timing for your dream work.

Bless Astrology for the wisdom, comfort and guidance it has provided you, me and so many in our troubled world. It is truly a gift to have found Astrology and spiritual wisdom to initiate you into a life of awareness rather than to live and die never knowing why you have been dreaming, feeling and being broken. Your chart shows an initial tug of war between the more traditional side of yourself, Saturn rising, the Moon in Virgo and the Sun in Leo conjunct Venus. Of course, you are “ideal”, beloved, caring and cared for, an A student, blessed and grateful, yet, your Sun/Venus/Mars conjunction in Leo is in Scorpio’s 8^th house squaring your natal Pluto, both Uranus and Neptune are in your 1^st house and your Moon is conjunct your Midheaven. The conventional versus deep perception, hard working versus broken by feeling and blessed versus troubled, this is the tension awakening you.

Powerful 8^th house, Pluto positions are often troubled and gifted by dreams of one’s own shadow fears, deaths, tragedies and catastrophes which either break them or transform them into healers, agents of transformation in the world. The first responsibility of these positions is to heal and transform yourself which you are currently dedicated to achieving. Focus on understanding your fears, worries and need to understand with your mind as both true and defensive needs of your Virgo Moon and Saturn rising. For now, stop watching CNN or other news media who immerse us in one tragedy after another replaying painful images, discussing how bad it all is as they exclude most of the good news, heroic acts and green shoots of the new world rising. Search for the positive news and people who are all around us. As truly tragic and troubled as the world is now, we are on the cusp of the Aquarian Age, new and more humane time in which you will play a role that you are now preparing to play.

Note that your progressed Sun/Moon/Mercury/Venus/Mars are now all in your 9^th house of spiritual seeking and life purpose. This is your time to study, learn, listen and grow into the wisdom which will support your understanding, your inner peace and your work in the world as all of these planets eventually progress into your 10^th house of career. Trust your wise guidance to cease thinking so much, trying to understand with your mind in order to live, find joy, love, fill your heart with trust and faith. I can say from decades of experience that you can live feeling the pain of the world, loving the world as it births its next consciousness and understanding as much we can understand while we are in this form. This unfolds gradually endlessly reminding us to be humble in our awareness that we do not and cannot understand the purpose of it all as life evolves.

As Jupiter moves into your 7^th house this spring, you will meet more like-minded people which will be comforting. As transiting Saturn completes its current conjunction to your natal Pluto and squares to your natal Sun/Venus/Mars over the next year, you will feel much clearer as you develop the resources internally and externally to live productively in this world as it is. Remember that your natal Saturn trines your natal Sun/Venus/Mars providing the strength to build a healthy, meaningful life without ceasing to feel. You will find a productive use for your dreams and visions. Continue to study Astrology, pursue your innate wisdom through your 9^th house Moon which will aid you in channeling your over active mind into compassionate action, and know that you can break out through your natal Moon square Uranus; not only through Astrology but through the bold, independent qualities you inherited from your mother’s example. Both you and the world will get better.

The first 29 ½ years of your Capricorn life has been very hard, tough, painful and seemingly unfair as you struggle to survive and thrive with the world throwing one hardship, loss and betrayal after another at you. As you meet your first Saturn return this fall it is quite reasonable to confront the reality that if this is all your life will ever be, why would you want to continue it for another 29 ½ years. Saturn returns are a renewal of our soul/destiny contract. The questions, observations and reflections you describe are just the ones you ideally would be asking in order to make the best possible decisions about how to proceed.

I am sure you do have a light, bright spirit which is clearly delineated by your Gemini Ascendant and 4 planets in Sagittarius yet you also have exquisite sensitivity shown by your Cancer Moon and 3 planets in Scorpio. The Gemini and Sagittarius archetypes are light, bright and positive while the Scorpio and Capricorn archetypes are dark, defensive and fearful. Both are you, the bright child, defending your spirit against the dark, hurtful family; both are also within you, one conscious and one unconscious. It is inevitable that a part of your nature/spirit would be unconscious when your only experience of the Scorpio/Capricorn qualities has been your painful family history.

Your Saturn return is not a choice between a life with more luck or one that remains stubbornly unlucky; it is a choice to let go of your past, face your internal shadow, pain and fear, and integrate that history in order to find your strength, mission and magnetism. Clearly, your family past is not your fault but this is the right time to heal that past by entering your 8th house subconscious (Scorpio’s work) where both the memories and the healing power lie. This deep healing, shadow, transformative work cannot be done entirely alone, only with and through others as you do your work.

Yes, a transpersonal therapist along with a talented energy, body worker would be perfect but, no, the money isn’t available for that right now. I would suggest you look for a group that is doing shadow work with a competent guide, perhaps through a Unity Church. It is time to replace your harsh family with a caring group who will support and love you. What I am suggesting is that your Saturn return is meant to be the healing that opens the door to a wholly new, healthy life. Capricorns believe if they just work harder, it will all change, however, your shadow/opposite sign as well as your Moon are in the sign of Cancer. You need TLC with people who will not abuse your vulnerability, who will embrace it. You already work hard enough; now your lesson is to work with others who will work with you. Scorpio planets (your Mars/Pluto/Saturn) do attract jealousy, envy, competition, betrayal and rejection until they don’t. That shift is your re-empowering yourself through deep healing after which you will attract the future not the continual out picturing of the past.

First, this Saturn return is the time to make the next 29 ½ years what you are capable of without the burden of your past. Jupiter conjuncted your Ascendant last spring where it is offering a reset, more confident better future when you let go and move on. Uranus is trining your natal Uranus allowing and encouraging you to either leave or remake your marriage and find a like-minded business environment and clientele. Neptune is trining your natal Mars/Pluto dissolving everything that is not resonant with your future destiny which will lead to that job, insight and healing opportunity which is resonant. Dissolving, letting go, is painful but necessary when what we letting go of is hurting us. Recent transits and progressions have been very hard; however, these developments are now over. Your progressed Venus will conjunct your natal Sun over the next year which leads to love, financial gain, a much better work environment and spiritual growth and happiness. It is going to get better though your ticket to that future does require emotional change and release.

Ouch, this continual pattern is discouraging. Interestingly, you were born with both Saturn and Pluto conjunct in the 10th house of career leading to many challenges in your career direction, experience and job security. Venus, which rules your 10th house of career, is in Leo sextile your Jupiter/Uranus/Mercury telling us that you can always find jobs due to your talents, ideas, presentation and skills. You are an attractive candidate, however, keeping a job is challenging unless or until you find a career, position, company and colleagues who can offer you the Saturn security/future and Pluto opportunity to contribute/empowerment you rightly seek. The bad news is that this combination has made it hard to find the right job or career opportunity creating your pattern of insecure jobs and losses (the shadow experience of your 10th house Saturn/Pluto); the good news is that this can be the end of your frustrating career pattern due to your Saturn return last year in your 10th house.

It is crucial that you are as careful as you can financially afford to be as you seek and choose to accept a new job which must meet as many of your criteria as possible. For you, just getting the job is not the issue; ask yourself what you really want in a job, where you want go in your career future and how you plan to achieve your career goals. This time just after your Saturn return is the time to seriously examine not your past jobs or reasons for their ending but your responsibility to know what you want, what you need to do to achieve your goals and to be completely honest about what you must change/develop in yourself to empower your own career future. This is a breakthrough/pattern shattering moment.

Transiting Jupiter will move into your 6th house of work/jobs in the spring where it can deliver either a job or a promotion if you have already found a job. With transiting Saturn still in your 10th house (and squaring Venus, the ruler of your career house until fall) be willing to work hard, learn as much as you can in and outside your job and build a foundation for your success. As transiting Neptune squares your natal Mercury/Jupiter/Uranus, it is crucial to listen to your own guidance/intuition and to find/trust your vision for your desired future. Your Gemini Sun/Mercury/Mars is bright, charming, verbal and engaging, however, you can be a bit impulsive and easily bored which may be affecting your job choices and performance; yet your Virgo Moon is less confident, more tentative and a bit unsure of how successful you have been or can be yet hardworking, skilled and competent. Hopefully, you either have or are seeking a loving, supportive partner which is always an emotional anchor for a Gemini. This is the time when you can begin and build a successful professional and personal life.

Gentleness, kindness, deep sensitivity and the capacity to feel equally deep loss and suffering are visible both in your Cancer Sun and your Scorpio Moon. Yes, you do have positions in the 12th house, most importantly your natal Sun which is conjunct your 1st house Chiron, which are indicators of the inner journey required to truly know yourself, rather than the easier though more superficial, unexamined sense of self most know.

I think your current painful struggle with the loss of your beloved, leading you into the underworld to meet again your harrowing self sabotage, self loathing and melancholy, is clearly delineated by your natal Moon in Scorpio tightly squaring your natal Saturn in Aquarius conjunct the Descendant triggered by transiting Saturn in Scorpio these last few months; a transit that will continue into the next 6 months. This is the time when you are being called to enter Scorpio’s underworld to meet, know and learn to direct your Moon/Saturn as a more integrated aspect of your nature with a valuable function. Do not face this darkness alone or utilizing only your previous coping skills, it is time for safe support through friends, healers or at least a spiritual/psychological process that can both guide and heal. It is also important to concentrate on transiting Neptune which is and has been opposing your natal Mars/Venus conjunction confirming the soulful depth of your recent love as well as its loss. However, Neptune (ruler of the 12th house where your Sun resides) has much more to teach you about what the path of the mystic, healer, teacher is and will be for you. Study Neptune through Astrology and mythology but be careful during this time (which includes 2013/2014) to stay grounded, to pursue spiritual experiences safely and gently.

Also, note that both your progressed Venus and Mercury are retrograde and will be for a number of years, therefore, be willing to take your time to enjoy your retrograde path to development and purpose. With your natal Mercury in Leo conjunct Jupiter and square Pluto, it is important to cease pushing, needing to know and seeking powerful experiences which you may not yet be prepared for, take it easy trusting magic and synchronicity to lead you gracefully. 2014, when transiting Jupiter conjuncts your Sun and Ascendant, will be a renewal period of growing awareness. The next 2-3 months as your progressed Moon moves into a square to your natal Pluto, be especially careful in meditation, yoga or any spiritual pursuit not to overdo; rather work with a healer, a therapist or a grounded spiritual exploration of your past/family befitting the Moon and your 4th house Pluto. Hopefully, this light shed on your chart will encourage and guide you during this challenging time.

Scorpio rising, natal Saturn conjunct Pluto, Chiron in Scorpio, South Node of the Moon in Scorpio and Sun/Mercury/Uranus in Scorpio’s 8th house highlight the pain, loss, hurt, jealousy, and depth of emotional trauma you are describing. Interestingly, your 7th house of marriage partners and your 11th house of friends are ruled by your natal Venus,which is conjunct Uranus, the ruler of trauma residing in your 8th house. This confirms the relationship you suspect between your early emotional history and your suffering in marriage, friendship and life. 

As a Cancer Sun, your relationship with and emotional sensitivity to your mother, her behavior and her emotional makeup and history is now and always was powerfully affecting. Generally one’s mother is described by the Moon in your natal chart. In your chart, your natal Moon is in Sagittarius conjunct Jupiter in the 1st house opposing your Venus in the 7th house and Uranus in the 8th house, clearly showing the trauma that your mother experienced in her own history. This trauma was projected onto you (whether intended or not)m shaping your 1st house self-awareness, your 7th house choice of and relationship with your spouse as well as your consistent experience of 8th house betrayal, jealousy, and pain. Fortunately, your natal Moon also trines Saturn/Pluto and sextiles Neptune affirming your kindness, positive nature and goodness.

The confusion you report is visible through your Mercury in Cancer in the 8th house squaring Neptune. For the last several years and through 2013, transiting Pluto and Uranus have either been in hard aspect to that square or approaching those hard aspects. This has focused you on understanding what is happening, why it is happening and what you can do to see and be seen differently. Your 7th house of marriage is ruled by Venus, natally conjunct Uranus, suggesting that you have been or will be separated or divorced. Your progressed Venus is approaching your natal Pluto indicating that a divorce will likely occur in a year or no longer than 3 years which may be necessary for your healing.

Due to your natal Neptune in your 11th house, it is not just that you aren’t seen clearly by friends or disappointed by them, it is also that you don’t see them as they are leading to your experience of being taken advantage of by them.

This spring as transiting Jupiter moves into your 8th house it is important for you to seek professional counseling in order to know your emotional past, be supported by a caring, competent therapist and heal your early relationship with your mother. Then as transiting Saturn conjuncts your Ascendant in 2014, you will be able to begin a new, healthy chapter in your life. I am not so sure that your mother was jealous of you; it is more likely that she was projecting her pain, her history, her needs or rejections through you, her daughter – though this enmeshment is very damaging. It is most important that you know yourself, nurture yourself (Cancer’s real mission), and learn how to seek and feel you deserve healthy, caring relationships with others. When we have been shaped by real trauma through another, it is crucial to recognize that healing can best be accomplished through another, a therapist.