Dear Flora, I am 68 years old and I really need to know why I sabotage myself when I get close to a goal–be it weight loss, practicing my guitar work, or socializing. Thank you, Jeanie
Hello, dear Jeanie, Whether it is with goals you hold especially dear, or those less significant, I am certain you are left feeling exceedingly frustrated each and every time this long-held pattern repeats itself. The good news is that your sincere desire to “know why” you sabotage yourself is palpable, and clearly signals your readiness for transformation! Your longing for insight and understanding served as guideposts, leading me to the Tansy flower essence.To ensure that this essences is the best match for you, engage with the illuminating energy of this Aries Full Moon, and spend time with the following questions, noting that a “yes” response to one or more confirms the Tansy flower essence is perfect for addressing this undermining habit you’ve been living with. Notice how you feel and what comes into your awareness as you reflect upon each of these questions:
- Do you frequently feel sluggish or lethargic? ‘Are you indecisive?
- Do you tend to procrastinate?
- Have you ever considered yourself to be lazy or indifferent?
- Are you challenged to make commitments?
- Do you withdraw when feeling pressure or tension?
- Did your childhood expose you to chaos, emotional instability, and/or confusion?
- Did you learn to suppress your “natural responses” in order to keep the peace?
Jeanie, I imagine you answered “yes” to several of those questions, and may even have started noticing yourself feeling frustration percolating up to the surface. If that is the case, I encourage you to view any feelings of frustration as a positive—as energy pointing you in the direction of re-connecting and re-engaging you with your true strength. If you are inspired, practice the following on a daily basis:
Invoke the essence of Tansy to activate and energize your intentions.
Invite Tansy it to foster your certainty and to enliven your interest.
Trust it to empower you to commit and to persevere.
This is the time, Jeanie, to permit yourself to release this outgrown habit. It served you well as a child, and has now reached its fullness. Offer up your pattern of self-sabotage to the Full Moon, and allow it to fade away as the Moon wanes. Give yourself a time-frame for this waning—the time between this Full Moon and the next New Moon—to literally experience it ebbing more with each passing day. When the New Moon arrives, spend time singing praises for your newfound courage and strength! I will be thinking of you, and smiling right along with you! Warmly, Jane