From the Mooncircles Archive: Anna Duval wrote this for us a year before her untimely death. We are pleased to remember her gentle voice and compassionate wisdom.
At the Virgo Full Moon, the Sun stands opposite in Pisces, which means here in the northern hemisphere, the last month of winter is upon us. Ice packs begin their long melting flow into the sea. Slowly the Sun is getting higher in the sky. Ready gardeners emerge from hibernation to grab the few hours of extra warmth each day, working to cleanse away debris and rotting leaves, eager to find out what the gods of dark and cold have allowed to survive through the long winter. Imbolc, the Celtic celebration that honors the growing power of light, has come and gone, as a check point to ask: “What are you on the way to manifesting? Are you still on the best path to fulfillment in this yet-new year?”
First there is the month of the Sun-in-Pisces to work with: the cleansing, the letting go, the re-member-ing of our connection to Source and Soul. In the Chinese tradition of the 5 Elements, water (the element of Pisces) is the element of winter. With water the energy is falling, flowing downward, melting or dissolving, and surrendering back into Source. Whatever is not compatible with, and therefore nourished by, Source, will die away. This is Pisces!
Water signs like Pisces want to draw us into our emotions, to experience their challenges and blessings. Surrender is the key. Find trust, open, and allow the energy of your feelings to flow. This process can’t happen in your mind alone. You won’t be able to plan, control or anticipate what will come. Heaven is a roadless area! Your trusting heart may take some practice to develop its curiosity and strength.
In prayer my guides once told me, “You need to cry.” I responded, “For how long? I’ve cried so much…how many tears can one person cry? I don’t want to keep perpetuating my grief!” My guides said: “Cry until you truly unlock the Flow of your feeling. This Flow has no end, and it is not all Grief! They are clearing and cleaning, just as Nature is doing this month. Tears can come as an overwhelm of feeling, but mostly, they’re a pleasurable release if you allow this natural process to do what it wants. After you’ve released the undigested emotions from the past, you are free to feel in the now…the exquisite beauties of you sorrow and joy, compassion, beauty, anger and awe.
So much unlocks along with your feelings! Your capacity to dissolve your stories and enjoy your connection to others, to self, to the planet, and to the Divine! Feelings are the nectar of creative life, that which propels you, as desire, into experience. What are the messages you’re receiving through your feeling body? How can you embrace and further the opportunities to cleanse? Give way, open your heart, and drink of the Divine!
Do you long for a more intimate connection with spirit and sky? Let 2019 be the year you act on this desire. You’ll find exquisite guidance in Dana’s monthly Moon Workshop here.
thank you for this post. I can deeply relate to these words and feelings.
Such dear sweet truth. I cried in solidarity with Anna Duval in reading her words.. Many times Ive asked in prayer, How long must I cry? How can there be anything left to release? I eventually came out of years of deep grieving and in the process woke fully my senses to the simple multitudes of beauty all around me. Thank you Anna and thank you Mooncircles (Dana Gerhardt et al) for reminding this North Node Virgo of the precious gift tears are along this roadless journey of heaven on earth.
Nice! Now a days people RUN from tears and people even some women discourage us from crying, acting like it is some kind of sin or disgusting shame to do., The wise know it means to draw closer to and to heal. Pure tears are cleansing our wounds and allow us to continue on in the process of healing.