In the middle of an exceptionally busy week when a series of deadlines had worn me down to a nubbin, I dragged myself to a client’s office to do some bookkeeping. Bookkeeping is such precise, Virgo work that I enjoy doing it now and then; it’s a bit like working a crossword puzzle. In an uncertain world, there’s something comforting about getting numbers to line up right.
But everything went wrong on this particular morning, as it often does when you’re feeling rushed and overextended. I was buzzing with tension; my attention wandered, and I kept making foolish mistakes. In the end I made a catastrophic blunder in the checking account reconciliation, blurted a frustrated profanity, and nearly burst into tears.
This client has known me for many years; he’s no stranger to my moods, but somehow likes me anyway. So today, as I sat there with blurry eyes, apologizing profusely for my mistake, he just came over and stood by my desk. “You need a break,” he declared. “If you keep pushing yourself so hard, you’re either going to become a very angry person, or just a very…” He struggled for a word. “A very stiff one.”
During Virgo’s season, the world of work beckons with such allure that before we know it, things can get out of hand. Suddenly our calendars are packed far too full and we are wound far too tightly. We look at the world and see only its imperfections, an endless Dead Sea Scroll of tasks that need Virgo’s capable hands to sort it all out and its methodical brain to analyze the root causes of the problems.
But when you begin to look at the world as a problem to be solved, you may forget that it’s also an enchanting mystery that defies both logical explanation and our best efforts to keep it tidied up. Fortunately, the world does its best to remind us, delivering shape-shifting numbers that stubbornly refuse to be wrangled, or trickster hard drive malfunctions. When we’re too entrenched in Virgo’s linear mindset, even our keen minds begin to rebel, refusing to stay focused. When we overdose on Virgo, our wise spirits instinctively reach out for a gentle antidote of music, beauty, and daydreams – all of which can be found in its opposite sign of Pisces, the sign of this Full Moon.
I came home from my bookkeeping excursion longing to take my client’s advice and have a bit of a break, but a writing deadline loomed at the end of the day. I dutifully, if wearily, sat at the computer to wrestle with the article.
A half an hour later, the phone rang. A dear and cheerful friend would be in my neighborhood later in the afternoon; would I be available for an impromptu visit? My Virgo sense of duty immediately flew into a tizz… “But you can’t! You’re on deadline!” In a split second, my Pisces self intervened and called for a general strike. “If you’re too busy to see a friend,” admonished a sassy voice from my heart, “then you are just too busy for your own good.” Indeed. I embraced the visit, which ended up being exactly what I needed. Not to mention that relaxed and renewed, I later knocked out the article in record time.
The world seems especially chaotic just now, with overwhelming natural disasters and the depressing morass of governmental gridlock. Like an old house fallen into disrepair, so much of our world needs fixing – and Virgo loves the challenge of a renovation. But even Virgo becomes overwhelmed in the face of so many tasks; and since much of the world seems beyond our control, we may overcompensate by overdoing it with the more human-scale tasks in front of us, taking on more than we can conceivably tackle.
But at this Full Moon in Pisces (in aspect to taskmaster Saturn), remember that trying to do too much to save the world, without taking time to remember why it’s worth saving, is a recipe for anger and brittleness. Pisces grasps that entropy is the natural condition of the universe; that without constant maintenance by mankind, the world would take care of itself quite nicely, thank you. Alan Weisman’s book “The World Without Us” hypothesizes that within about 20 years of humans disappearing from the earth, New York City would already be in a state of advanced decay. Whether you consider that a scary thought or an intriguing one probably depends on how comfortable you are with a Pisces view of the world.
“There is so much work to be done!” Virgo insists, and it’s true enough. But at the Pisces Full Moon, we’re also reminded that “dust we are, and to dust we shall return.” Virgo, who holds strong opinions about dust, shudders at the very idea. But our wise Pisces natures shrug in cheerful acceptance of life’s inherent messiness, the missed deadlines, the world in disarray, and the house that needs dusting. At this Full Moon, take your cues from your heart, and relax a little. Sneak away for lunch with a friend, or take in a movie. The world will keep turning even if you take your eye off of it for a minute or two—and even if your checking account doesn’t balance.
Dawn Marie says
April, you made my day with this post. THANK YOU!
My chart’s stellium in Virgo have been in a big fight with all of the other planets in Water. I’m going for a swim!!!