I am a Gemini born on June 14th, 1990. I have recently started to research the Moon’s effects on my mood because I’ve noticed a very strange pattern. Every single month, there is one day I feel absolutely crazy, almost other-worldly, as if I’m connected to the universe so strongly that its entirety and energy take over my mind/body. And, like clockwork, every time I get this feeling, it is the day before the full Moon. It is such an overwhelming feeling but it’s never negative per say, just odd, sometimes enlightening. However, today which is 5/31; I have felt horribly unlike myself, horribly lost. I have been second-guessing my every move. This is very unlike me since I am typically a free spirit who acts on impulse. Today, I feel so down, so low, but it isn’t just a sadness, it is much deeper like a negative energy block. I then remembered tomorrow is the new Moon. A few examples, I feel like I’ve completely lost the interest of a new romantic partner who was just wild about me until today. He is sending me the strangest vibes. Also, the biggest thing, my career, is my acting. I am an actress which is my life passion. I am always 100% sure of myself in this field and I know in my soul I will succeed. But I feel like I need some guidance suddenly – not whether or not to do acting because this is my true love and I will do it no matter what – but where to go now, how to get there (aside from acting school which I am currently in). Anyways, I guess the thing of it is, I’M SO INCREDIBLY LOST. Please offer me guidance if you can. Am I totally wrong about all of this or does the Moon have something to do with it? Peace and love.
The Moon definitely has a great deal to do with it in more ways than you may yet know. For everyone it is valuable to track one’s monthly Moon cycle responses in order to fully express and benefit from our exquisite senses and intuitive abilities. However, you are attuned to much more than the Moon’s monthly cycle you are currently observing. First, you were born with your natal Sun at 23 degrees of Gemini where the Full Moon eclipse will occur on June 15th at 24 degrees of Gemini (an 18-19 year cycle); secondly, the transiting South Node of the Moon is currently conjuncting your Sun (an 18 year cycle); thirdly, your solar arc progressed Moon is moving into conjunction with your Descendant over the next 2 years where it will be prominently felt (a onetime event) ; fourthly, your secondary progressed Moon is only 4 months from opposing your natal Sun as it reaches its Full Moon phase (a 29 year cycle); and, finally, your natal Moon is 5 degrees of Pisces where transiting Neptune, its ruler, will conjunct it in a few years (a major transit you are already feeling and will be for several years). No wonder you are ever more sensitive. The good news is that you have always been much more sensitive, intuitive, tuned-in, connected and aware than you have known consciously; now you will need to know this ability consciously which may be confusing and unsettling now but will become second nature and very valuable as you integrate your feelings with your bright Gemini spirit. Of course, your Mars in Aries along with your Sun in Gemini at the Midheaven is free-spirited, impulsive, confident and naturally sure of yourself. Yet, you do have a Pisces Moon in Virgo’s 6th house, Virgo rising and your natal Mercury squaring your Moon and quincunxing your Uranus. A bit of other-worldly, odd, second-guessing, confusion, and need for guidance or encouragement have always been part of your unconscious self. This is a time of awakening sensitivity which will be uncomfortable and unfamiliar at first but rich, expressive and empowering for your acting potential. With Jupiter exalted in Cancer in your 10th house of career, your natal Sun conjunct the Midheaven, your progressed Sun moving to conjunct your 10th house Jupiter in 2 years, your progressed Mercury conjuncting your Midheaven in a year and transiting Pluto moving into conjunction with your natal Neptune (the ruler of your 7th house) in 2 to 3 years you will surely be successful. A Pisces Moon feels everything – your feelings at every level of consciousness, other people’s feelings also at every level of consciousness, the collective feelings of the world and the larger spiritual dimensions – this is your gift. However, you will now have to learn how to live consciously in this expansive feeling world, develop appropriate boundaries for your gift and direct this sensitivity personally and professionally. Good luck feeling!
QUESTION: I am a 28 year old female. My question is, will I find my purpose in life? And, if this is the case, when will this struggle end? What could be my profession? I have been married for 8 years but now I am planning to get a divorce. I feel like I need to change everything in my life. I am still a student (philology) and hope to graduate next year but I am not really happy with my course of studies though I think I am too old to take a second degree. I feel so confused. In the next few years, both Pluto and Uranus will transit my stellium in my 12th house by square and opposition. Should I be afraid of this time? I was born October 16, 1982. Greetings.
ANSWER: Age 28 is a sign that points to the reason for your confusion as well as the solution and duration of that confusion. This fall as you reach your 29th birthday you will experience your first Saturn return which you have been feeling for many months. It is natural and necessary to question and assess everything in your life at this time. Saturn stops us in our tracks and asks us where we think we are going, how are we going to get there and is what we are and have been doing going to support us on our journey to achieve that goal? If you are not questioning everything you many remain attached to structures such as a marriage, a career, a purpose, a location, a belief or anything that is not a true expression of who you have become over these last 28 years. This is the moment when we know enough to know what does not feel true, purposeful, and soul aligned. This is time to end and leave behind the skins that no longer fit our full, emerging, mature self. If your marriage is not working now, it is time for a divorce. If you are no longer sure about your course of studies, it is time to consider how to translate your coming degree into a career you could be excited about or to explore how to alter your degree program to move in a more desirable direction. Neither be afraid of nor diminish the challenges of the coming Uranus oppositions to your 12th house Libra stellium and the Pluto squares to those same planets. Currently, Saturn/Uranus/Pluto are all either transiting your 12th house Libra planets or they will over the next decade. This time will be uncomfortable, painful and liberating. With 4 planets in the 12th house and 2 more within 1 degree of that house, you have a 12th house chart. This is the time when you will develop your deepest, truest relationship with yourself, a partner, your work and your soul purpose; opportunities worth working for. Your current major fits your 6 planets in an intellectual air sign. The problem is that you don’t yet know why you are learning what you are studying nor how you will apply your knowledge. Teaching, writing, speaking, policy, politics, advocacy may all be avenues for your ideas as you come to understand and be guided to develop your North Node of the Moon in the 9th house, your natal Sun/Saturn/Pluto conjunction, and your Pluto conjunct your Ascendant. Not only is your chart centered in your 12th house, not only do you have mega transits to your 12th house planets but your progressed Moon phase is in the balsamic lacing this time with the same, ending flavor. By late next year, your Saturn return will be complete, transiting Saturn will be out of your 12th house beginning a new 1st house phase and you will be enjoying a progressed New Moon beginning. This is a time of massive change for you to know that as you courageously change your marriage, explore your inner world, finish your degree and move out into a new life, clarity and realization will emerge. Trust yourself!