On December 28th, the Full Cold Moon arrives. Is it a challenging Moon for you, a possibly treacherous time of the year? It is for me. With my Irish background, I’ve always been a leaner when it comes to brooding. I’m a history buff, so I am also frequently looking backward to understand here and now. Couple all of this with my current progressed 12th house Moon, and I could be a marshmallow of exposed nerve endings, a bucket of woeful tears.
I was born with several 12th house planets. My 12th house Sun wants so much to be loved and admired and approved of, and he is oh so insecure about it! It has taken me decades to learn not to curl up in a little snuffling ball until the internal weather warms up, but it has only been in the last few years that I have begun to make progress. That’s when I started truly listening to my beloved, a Divine Feminine powerhouse who brilliantly understands all phases and nuances of the Moon. This Moon mistress has taught me to embrace all situations and conditions as opportunities for healthy change, as opportunities to receive and create inspiration and love.
This process can work in such small, precious and effective ways. In a recent email, I told her that I was lifted up and renewed whenever she said — at the end of an email, Skype session or phone conversation — that she loves me. She remembered this. And without fanfare, without announcements, without demands for getting credit for having heard me, she simply remembered to say or write love you.
Imagine how much warmth that adds in this chilly season! It’s like turning up the pilot light inside. I see her and feel her with ever greater intensity, and all my feelings and thoughts are compassionate and loving. It spills over, too. I smile at others more. I am more at ease. I’ve allowed my 12th house Sun a voice, and that voice led to a greater sense of security and acceptance.
That’s what this Full Moon is all about. Deep in your burrow, open your heart. Speak the words of your insecurities and fears or write them down. Sit with them. Walk with them. Then try dancing with them. Go ahead, in your own room, when no one’s looking!
Here is a poem of mine that emerged from such a process. May it inspire you to name your own blessings in this cold month that houses such passionate, healing fires just waiting to warm the world.
Grateful
Be grateful that you live
Inside the head you do.
How many times have you
Gone sailing through
Your bed or favorite chair to
Wave a sign in the sleaze
Of traffic: Need money. Please!
How many times have you
Suffered with the losers
Of war, or chafed and simmered
On a reservation, or brokered
The rescue of many from fear?
How many hours have you
Survived the lessons of gender
Change, or held your hero,
So splendid because of you?
Be grateful, be father and mother,
Be teacher, sister and brother
In all that you dream and do,
Against the day your ledger
Is opened up to you.
© 2012 Robert McDowell
Hi, Sunny! I’ve no idea how you came to this page, either, but I’m delighted! Thank you for sharing your reaction. Hope you come back!
Robert
Robert,
I have no idea how I came to this webpage but am happy to discover your beautifully inspired words dancing across my cyber page.
The poem is ecstatic.
Thank you so much for sharing your wise dreams.
Dear Robert,
Thank you so much for this COLD FULL MOON,
<i was born with 3 powerful planets in Cancer, Mars at 6.10 degree, Venus and Pluto making a close conjunction, 27.30 and Pluto at 28.40. My Cancer is in the XII House. Reading the Advises of you Mistress, had learn a lot…
Embrace your fears, Disappointments…in futur you are the Lover, and sharing it.
Also thank you so much for your Poem " Gratitud"
My blessings for 2013
As always,
Maria
Thank you, Maria. May the coming year bring you health and happiness and peace.
Robert
Robert, this brought tears to my eyes. I can relate so well. I too am a 12th house Sun and my mother a 12th house moon, so this has really helped me to understand her better. I need to say those words to her more often. She too is very lonely in her soul as she lost her mother at a young age and I am sure it has affected her her whole life. Thank you for reminding us how much it means to others and to not be afraid to say “I love you” or even simply “love you.”….great poem too!
Happy New Year to you!
Dear Michele,
Thank you for your generous reply. It moves me as we move together along our parallel paths. Blessings to you! Robert